EMOunluvedchik77

this world is disheveled almost as bad as my hair on a saturday morning but worse worse because there is bloodshed involved worse because women and children and men are being gun-downed worse because i cant do anything about it a brush can't fix a mass of people on the ground gunned down from the air, it can't fix the pain of a mother's heart over the bleeding body of her six year old son it can't order the mess that this world has fallen into due to hypocrisy and tyranny it can't comb out the tangles of sleepless, sick, shaky nights when i miss you and hunger for you as i do now when i see people hurt and broken i feel thankful

I looked up and saw you for such a long time I breathed, drank, and lived on your love I gave you all I had depended on you for my daily dose of syrupy goodness I turned to you during times of distress, pain, and anger You knew how to handle me when I was at my best and when I was at my worst then you left as abruptly as you came, you left and so, here I am stranded holding on for dear life you didn't stay long enough to refill my prescription.

Slowly sinking in this black ocean wonder my eyes sting I may cry just don't let go hold my ribs in place breathe breathe holding it all in hands on my waist steady wait stop it teasing me tell these dreams to end its over I bitterly surrender the water reaches my chest choking its cold stop it just stop it fuck your love keep it keep it now its at my neck constantly flow back my lips are white just leave leave me go back and leave just leave and I drown dreaming again and again won't you ever leave my head?

  Your dark hair slipping through my fingers like silky threads lying on velvet sheets your head nestled against my gently rising and falling chest smoldering eyes, caressing me you smirk and slowly, lovingly, stroke my cheek leaning up, your lips finally crashing against mine... I open my eyes at the sound of my alarm and sigh, sitting up

Short and sweet tired but patient bloody warmth holds me in place and the world tightens its grip harder and harder so now I can't breathe can't even gasp can't even try